Monthly Archives: May 2015



“You must not fight too often with one enemy, or you will teach him all your art of war.”

It’s all abstract right now. I will extract the necessary tools and colors I need from their work and training.

Fight me. You will teach my imagination to paint an even better picture. My canvas has plenty more space and my brush will absorb it all.

Take care


Hellos. Goodbyes.

As I made my rounds I felt sad. Sad that it’s the last day. Sad that it’s the end. Sad that I chose and made a decision and this is the result. Goodbyes and best wishes. Take care.

But my mind didn’t change.

Birth, Wisdom, Life


“But ask the animals, and they will teach you,

    or the birds in the sky, and they will tell you;

or speak to the earth, and it will teach you,

    or let the fish in the sea inform you.

Which of all these does not know

    that the hand of the Lord has done this?

In his hand is the life of every creature

    and the breath of all mankind.

Does not the ear test words

    as the tongue tastes food?

Is not wisdom found among the aged?

    Does not long life bring understanding?



You have given and you have taken away. Teach me to be patient in suffering. For there is coming a day in which you will wipe every tear away. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain.

And for now, I do not need to understand how your plans work to trust you. You give. You take away. At this moment I do not understand. But I wish to be considered like your servant.



“Some things, I just can’t.. I don’t know.”

Is it because you can’t, or is it because you don’t want to deal with certain things?

Confusion? Is that all? You do know.

Die mind


“The possession of anything begins in the mind.”

Power = work / time. Work is the motion and displacement due to force.

Emotions are only distractions. They will be converted into energy to do work. I am in desperate need of power again. I’ve grown soft and I cannot allow certain things I wish to be mine to be taken away this time. Resources available to be mined are plentiful.

Your mind must be impenetrable and hard as a rock. Begin to refine your mind, it is a diamond in the rough.



I’ve been feeling discouraged lately. I’m not really sure why. Then again, I don’t really need to explain anything. It’s not some problem to be solved. It’s just how I feel at the moment. It will pass, but it’s kind of annoying.

Maybe it’s stress, maybe it’s just being around negativity, maybe its.. who cares? I think my optimism just needs a break every once and awhile. I’m one of the most optimistic people but I’m also one of the most skeptical as well. Sometimes my optimism needs a little breather from all the skepticism it has to put up with. It’s like.. skepticism causes my optimism so much stress and eventually my optimism needs a break and it’s like, “Nope, I can’t deal with this right now; have fun searching in the dark for hope by yourself, I need to recharge my batteries.”

Or maybe it’s the other way around – maybe my optimism is fully charged, and my skepticism is like, “Yeah, you are way too positive right now so I’m just going to be as negative as I can so we both don’t explode.”

So my emotions just discharge and right now I feel discouraged.



“I fear not the man who has practiced 10,000 kicks once, but I fear the man who has practiced one kick 10,000 times.”

The 10,000 hour rule. Equivalent to 40 hours a week for 5 years. Or 20 hours a week for 10 years. One hundred times one hundred. Ten thousand. The idea is: put in ten thousand hours and you will master a skill.

Now, how do you get to ten times more than this? To be the very best to the point where no one can compete? I’m stuck in this mindset of thinking that if I put in the time, I can master anything. But the problem is: I want to master everything.

So is this the ultimate goal? How do I reduce 100,000 hours into 100,000 seconds? Time is ticking. Second after second.



Without vowels, what can I say? Is it possible to give anything meaning?

I said three words. How do I care for them, nurture them, and bring life to them? Help them to develop, grow strong, and flourish? To ensure they do not remain words but become something more, something great?

Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.

Thank you for everything that you’ve shown me.



The second you enter through that door, who knows what could happen. Cleanse your body. You must maintain your integrity at all costs. They will try to twist and corrupt you. Stay true and straight. You are not your own. Do not yield and do not compromise your guard.

I ask you. That my intentions be pure and that they be yours. Please guide and control them. Do not let the crowd control them. Allow me to show them the spirit that you gave to me. I am yours. You alone are worthy. Grant me boldness.

“For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.”