I’ve always questioned the reasons for these feelings.
“Now I’m digging up a grave, from my past. I’m a whole different person. It’s a gift and a curse, but I cannot reverse it.”
If they felt good then it was bad to reject them. If they felt bad then it was good to reject them.
“Let the past die. Kill it, if you have to. That’s the only way to become what you were meant to be.”
Does it feel good or bad to be an asshole? Honestly it feels bad. But that doesn’t matter, the required strength exists in that image and you bet I will extract every last drop of value. And it does feels good to get what you want, but that doesn’t matter. No one can tell that you’re stealing if you put on a poker face. Why would robbery be any different?