It’s becoming a theme where I feel like I’m.. not naive, but.. what’s the word..
Alright I give up. Let’s use naive.
I don’t understand certain things. It’s like I feel a little left out of the loop. For context, I’m talking about communication. There are so many variables and factors involved with communication. It’s crazy. There’s no way to make sense of it all. There are hidden nuances in communication, things aren’t always as they seem, and it’s hard for me to decipher it all.
For one thing, everyone is different and I’ll be one of the last people you will see make a judgement call without enough information. Sure, I’ll probably have an inkling about what is going on, but I’m skeptical to trust it based on one case study instance. Communication. There has been a recurring theme recently in my life and it’s..(well its hard to say what I completely mean without writing an essay so maybe if I write one word maybe someone will understand, maybe they won’t, but I know for sure there will be pros and cons for writing an essay vs writing one word so let’s just go with the word because it’s shorter and more efficient and I can use programming principles such as DRY and I’m rambling now, no one wants to read this) ironic.
Every time I communicate I feel like no one understands my optimism. I’m not sure if this is a family issue, a culture issue, or a just me issue. I’m probably one of the most optimistic people you’ll ever meet (if you do ever meet me that is, which I would say IS possible). What I mean by that is I believe it takes an “unrealistic” amount of confidence to say something cannot be done, that is, to say with ABSOLUTE certainty that something is not possible. This is because I believe you need that confidence to be 100%. And that’s the reality, that’s not me being pessimistic (Are you God? Do you know everything?). On the other hand, it’s much more plausible to say something is able to be done. Even if the supposed probability is 1%, my statement that something is able to be done still holds true. And I’ll trust in that statement until it’s proven wrong. Even then, it’s probably not going to be to the 100% standard that I want. So I’ll still probably “hope for the best”.
Here’s another example I’ll use to demonstrate optimism vs pessimism (I hope one is enough to convince you because I’ve had like 5 random coincidences happen today that I can use for examples; I have plenty more examples floating around in my head). I’ll ask you a question to think about. Here’s the question, without any context for you to lean upon for guidance: What would you think of me if I told you I like to fight, participate in competitions, and destroy my enemies?
Hmm. Give me your best impression and your worst impression.
Now for the clarification that I myself would need. I will fight to the bitter end for things that matter to me. I will participate in competitions, because even a loss can be seen as a win if you look at the silver lining. And finally, I will destroy my enemies if they get in the way of my goal.
I’m going to go refill my cup of water. It’s half-full.